Blessed

During our honeymoon cruise @ Halong Bay

Us :)

I've found this link and the story successfully bring tears to my eyes...and I feel blessed after reading it, we're never know what tomorrow will hold so everyday before I go to bed and after I wake up in the morning.. I start my day with morning prayer for my darling husband to have safe trip as he drive car to work,for my little Bryan, for my parents and brothers.

love your loved one like there's no tomorrow maybe it's not an easy thing to do, there's always an upside down in relationship but..I'm trying hard to do so :)

My terrible two

I was 2 years-3 months & 8 days when my brother, Victor came in this world and mostly people already forget what happened during that age but I still remember quite well how I made my parents (especially my mommy) out of her temper with my terrible two acts, seriously.. it's bad!!

I'm so jealous with my brother and trying hard to make mommy not love the baby, and this is what I did during my terrible two...crying out my lug just to attract everybody attention (with no reason), put my fingers in mouth in hope of vomit and get attention, broke mommy super expensive channel lipstick (and make it as crayon in wall and face), refuse to eat (it's very hard to make me chew), stamp my feet and many more...!! and what my mom did? sometimes she just doing nothing and let me stop by myself, sometimes she's mad,shout and hit my legs. I think I make her quite suffer in dealing with my terrible two,especially she don't have any nanny to look after me.

And now I just hope that Bryan terrible two phase is not bad as his mommy *kekekekeke* but it's starting already...!!

Bryan in avatar

I've found this cool site..and this is what I have created..


Bryan in avatar complete with his beloved pacifier and teddy bear!! oh..and the chick in front is represent of me.. (as I was born in year of roaster). can't stop laughing!

Think positive & be blessed

Most of my friends are asking me one same question when they're know that I'm living together with in-laws. "how you handle it?" or "you can tahan meh?" well, I'm not a superwoman yet (and i think i never be one) but I'm trying my best to adapt to family rules, of course it's not an easy task to do, there's lots of struggle along the way, eventough I'm already dating hubby for 10 years and quite understand his family member behavior but still it's not same when I must deal with it every minutes.

There's always two side of coins, the good one and the bad one, I can choose to be grumpy or I can choose to be happy and feel blessed, happiness is a choice and it was us who decided if we want to be happy or no, it just matter of a mindset, for me..living with in laws makes me learning and understanding something that I never thought before, I'm blessed to have this opportunity even there's upside down moments too, i think in this world,there's no such of perfect happily ever after family, built a happy family need lots of effort and struggle too but it was love who always stick on us forever.

I can't imagine how my mom in laws raise 5 children (all of them are 2 years apart) all by herself while she also must cooking for all family members (include her in-laws,sis and bro in laws), and to re-think I think my life is much much better than her, she's maybe "kepo" and fussy but that's all for my own good, I think she's trying to make me a better wife (and close a bit to her daughter in law criteria), every mother only want the best for her son and maybe I also can be like her one day when I think that my daughter in law is not take care of my son properly, and I can also feel sad if one day my son is reject or think that I'm only his burden and decided not to stay with me if he has a family and left me alone, it's part of a circle of life so instead of being complain, I think I should think it positive and be blessed :)

Mommy new gadget

Here's few reason why I'm finally change my N-73 handphone :

• low memory (i just have 128 MB Memory card)
• Battery leak (even i already charge it normally, it's only last for half day)
• Unreasonable new battery prices
  

after months of searching and comparing, I've finally decide to buy N-79 to replace my N-73 :D
it comes with wi-fi, slim model with express cover changing and most important 5 megapixel camera with 4 G memory card!! All this time, I'm not using digital pocket camera to take bryan pictures daily, my panasonic camera still in my mom house,jaya sony digital camera is too old, the picture always blur since bryan can not stand still, and Jaya canon 40-D SLR camera is hardly out from our closet, even if he's taking a picture with it, I get lazy to resize and open since it will takes longgggg times since my asus laptop hard disk is run of space too *bwahahaha*

instead of blackberry and other smart phone, all i need is a nice camera handphone with better result picture from my N-73. actually, I'm also intersted with N-82 since the camera is come with xenon flash and the result photo is very clear, but I don't like the keypad.

so, today i'm officially using my new N-79 :)

Siblings?

Many peoples are asking me, when will Bryan have brother/sister? cause most of them said that its better to have second child 2-3 years different from the oldest so they still can catch up and become playmate rather than wait until Bryan is 5 years old.

Yes,of course I want to give Bryan sibling to play with, Jaya and I are come from big families, I have 3 younger brother while Jaya have 4 older sister, when I was a little girl.. I'll always want to have 5 children, 3 older son-2 little twins girl, I even prepare names for them, of course bryan names also come from that list ;) but its when I was little and very naive! now, I think I only want 3 and really hope that my second child are twins since Jaya said he only want 2 :D

but back again,I think the question about second child is really personal one, people can ask,give opinion or share their experience but the decision is still on couples, is they're ready as in emotion and material? (since raising a baby needs LOTS of money) or their own commitment before married (maybe they just want ONE baby) some people can be very annoying and irritated in gossiping others, such as when they heard that Mrs X already pregnant again while her son just 4 months old or when they think that Mrs Y is not really a good mother since she give their children a nannies while she go shopping at mall.

We, as an outsider maybe don't now the truth and their personal reason behind all of that, maybe Mrs. X get married at 30 something and she think that she'll running out of time if she don't make another baby now or she just ready as in emotion and material, and maybe Mrs Y is a great mother, she do spend quality times with their children at home and maybe when they find Mrs Y shopping, it's her time to have me-time alone moment. who knows rite? we just an outsider.

and for me.. I have my own reason and fear about having a second child, I think I'll wait until Bryan is 3 years before having a second one, cause I can more focus to him now and spend more times before he's ready to go school but In other hand I also afraid that my second child is not as easy as Bryan (Bryan is consider an easy one), how can I divide my love to other baby or bryan get jealous with the baby, and so many others thoughts,which I'm sure some mother also think about it when get pregnant with the second one.

for this moment, I'm still enjoy my times with my little Bryan.

Baby safety

Long before Bryan is able to walk, my father in law is already thinking how to makes our house become safety, since our house have 3 floors, non-safety stairs and balcony design, he's start hunting baby safety gates at babies store in order to get image and inspiration in how to deploy it at our stairs and after he have a design, he's calling people who makes our stairs to make it otherwise the material and the color will not matching with our stairs. and for the balcony in second floor.. he's cover it all with a thick transparent board so when bryan is running over to balcony he'll be safe :)

thank you yeye..:)

Mommy birthday

I'm turning 1 year older today,since i share the same birthday with one of my uncle, we're celebrate it together at big family dinner, but bryan is not join for dinner since it pass of his sleep time and he'll get cranky, so I've decided to blowing my candle with bryan at home before I go there.

Liezaa farewell

Ling-ling ,Me, Echie and Liezaa

My best friend, liezaa will go to beijing for a year to study mandarin in couple days so we went out for dinner at secret recipe in kelapa gading mall along with our other best friend,echie and liezaa cousin, ling-ling. I'll miss her so much but also happy for her since it's been her long dream. wish you all the best there,sis! *hugz*

Back to work?

I've got a nice job offer in one of company that I've been dreaming off to work there when I'm still single, one of my ex-client from that company contact me last week and asked my resume,the next day they're calling for an interview, I thought..not bad to give it shot, after all maybe I'm not the one they're searching for.

After lots of IQ test,4 interviews phase (HRD-USER-MANAGING DIRECTOR-HRD) they're offer me a position that I've been dreaming off, a good facilities and nice digit of salary (very nice), after discuss it with jaya, I've decided to put down that offer, I can't go back to work at this moment... and the only reason why I can't take that offer is because of my precious son, he needs my full attention and affection even I have "suster" to help me around still I can't go to work while half of my heart thinking about bryan all day long, it's part of myself commitment after marriage.... to raise and educate my son first, let say if I'm selfish and take that offer, bryan will raise and educate by his nanny,which for sure is far from my expectation. I've seen and heard lots story about kids who cry looking for their nanny when their nanny go back to their village and the mother can't stop their kids from crying, nanny who abandon kids while they busy to chit chat on phone,nanny who torture kids or lots more! I want Bryan have special bonding with me, knowing that I'll always be there for him no matter what happens and he always comes first in everything that I do.

so I better not take that job, even that offer is very tempting and hard to refuse but I won't regret it bryan is more important than anything for me now. to witness his first mumble,his first word,his first step is my greatest achievement beside who say that become a full time mother is not a job? it's the greatest job I've ever done!!

Overweight mommy

Mommy is overweight!! *frustrated* it's really hard to back to my pre-pregnancy weight since I stop breastfeeding bryan, I wonder why the scale always increase? I only gain 7 kg when pregnant with bryan, but before I'm pregnant I already increase 4 kg since my wedding day! 4 kg in 2 months!! It's all because I eat lots during my 2 weeks honeymoon! *blame the delicious buffet in cruise and flooding in Jakarta that make me extend my stay in spore for 5 days*

actually after labor my weight decrease 8 kg! I'm sooo happy! I even feel my tummy slimmer than before pregnant, so after all i thought i only have 2,5 kg to loose, but now after I stop breastfeeding, my weight up again 10 kg!! I'm too underestimate about weight loose! it's not easy than it looks like!! eventough all my pants still fit in (amazing huh?) i still have 12 kg to loose! diet..diet..diet... !!

Celebrating

Today,.. 11 years ago I met my soul mate