It's been 12 years...

We're celebrate our 12 years dating anniversary today...
just like last year..no flower...no card...
but we manage to have late dinner and catch up a coffee...
after my our little darling doze off at 7.30 PM :)

On daddy birthday

Daddy celebrate birthday today..actually he's turn 30 but we're put 31 according to his chinese age (due of special order from his parents) and we're celebrate it at home together with whole family (read: my in-laws and sis-in laws) we've bought foods from outside and this year, bryan can blow candle with daddy also very kiasu to help daddy cut the cake, he even loves cake too..I bought ice fruit cake and he can finish all one slice :D

and as a surprise..mommy give daddy a cell phone from sony ericsson 510 :)

Happy birthday babe, thank you for being a great,caring ,wonderful husband and daddy for us wishing you good health, wisdom and forever young in heart :)

Nai-nai birthday

Happy granny with her grand childs :)

say cheesseeeee :)

16 months old at Sea World

amaze with huge fish in front of him,he even cry when I take him to walk away so, he just stunning in front of it until another 10 min. :D

Us with Pepsi Baby Milo :)

it's so hard to take nice pic, since he keep looking for fish :(

with his partner in crime ;)

My father in law uncle (bryan's lau-cek-kong) is coming from Medan since last monday, so we're taking him to see fish at Sea World, and of course Bryan and Naomi come along too.. this is his second trip, the first one is on last December along with our relatives from Singapore, he's so excited see fishes and keep pointing when he see it.

and his 16 months big update are : he's finally can bend his body to pick up an object and standing up by him self from squad position *yeah*

First Sunday school

I've been waiting to bring bryan to sunday school since he's been able to walk but always delayed due to his nap times, the sunday school start at 11.00 and usually bryan nap is around 9.00-9.30 until lunch time (around 11.00-11.30) but today, his nap was early at 8.30 so I think that we can go to church on time,I'm prepare his lunch while he's sleeping and we're go to church after he's wake up around 10.00.

Since bryan is still 15 months, he's join babies class (0-18 months) but he's the oldest in the class,
and as I'm expected he's crying out loud when we're enter class room, refuse to go inside and want me to hold him, so I went outside, take him walk for a while and try to enter class room again,and he's crying even loud (kind of hysterical), but this time I'm not bring him outside anymore, I try to attract his attention with toys that provided in class (FAILED), give him tour in class (FAILED), his sunday school teacher try to hold him (EVEN WORST), put him on floor and ask him to walk around class (FAILED) and he's finally stop crying when he see a little baby girl crawling into him and pass her toys to him! he's suddenly smile to that baby girl (Chloe), walking away by himself and follow chloe inside a circle!!! I'm so jelouse! bwahahahaha..

but the rest is very smooth, he's enjoy his class and not very clingy with mommy anymore (want to be hold by his nanny) so mommy can take few pictures of this memorial day. too bad that I don't have time to take chloe picture with him.. :D

Opa birthday

happy birthday dad, we love you very very much! :)

Us, 1 year ago this day.. *little Bryan and slimmer mommy*

and this is us one year ago,
jaya is not going since he's still in recovery after deque fever!

Opa is turn 60 years old today, so we're all have lunch at one of opa favourite restaurant, my brother, Victor is back from Solo (he's working at BCA Finanace as branch manager there) and my youngest brother, Edwin is back from Bandung (he's still in university) ony my second brother, Hendri is not back since he's working overseas (singapore).

Happy birthday daddy, the happiness is not about being perfect but seeing beyond the imperfection Have a wonderful day! :)

Happy Valentine

It's a valentine's day but there's no special celebration on this day, we're just hanging out at Senayan city mall with my parents and auntie since it's saturday.

we used to make it special when we're on our early years of dating since every valentine day also happened to be our half year anniversary, I remember when we're saying happy anniversary on every months until we're forget how many months we've been together, but as long as I remember there's less than 5 valentine cards that jaya has give me during our 11 years relationship.

so, no card,flowers,gift,and fine dining since he's always said "everyday is valentine day for us!" *lol* but we are giving Bryan a valentine heart balloon to play with ;)

Happy valentine's day and 11.5 years anniversary babe.. ;)

Bryan and his uncles

Happy chinese new year

My two "baby" boys on new year morning ;)

Three of us during reunion dinner

Bryan with his Yeye, Nai-Nai and Naomi @ Reunion dinner 25 January 2008

Longest night ever

It's around 8.30 PM on sunday evening when I heard a big explosion that makes all windows and doors in my house shaking hard then a few minutes later it appears that there's a fuel tank explosion, near my house area. the flame can be seen very clearly on my 3rd floor balcony, we can't sleep since many people has called and told us to get evacuate from house since the location is very near and after 2 hours the heat from the flame can be feel even we're inside house, we're afraid that the fire will spread to our neighbours. so I've decided move with bryan to my parents house since the location is quite far from the explosion.

It's bit raining when we're leaving house at 11.30 PM and it become heavy raining when we're arrived at my parents house, too bad bryan's decided to woke up and don't want to sleep again when we're arrived there and he become bit cranky when he still can't sleep until 2.30am, so I try to put him sleep on sling and come downstair, it's when I realized that the water has enter my living room and when I see outside, the water already reach my car park too, my brother and father are rush to evacuate the car to higher place while I'm busy mopping floor and put things to higher place with my mother. my bryan finally a sleep after he's laughing and smile when he's see me mopping floor *sigh* I hardly not sleep that night, the water enter house until ankle while outside is higher.

And about the fire...no need to tell..it extinguished around 5.00 AM and don't spread to any areas. from big fire to big flood..all in one night at kelapa gading *shake head*

Welcome 2009

It's a new year...and also a fresh start for 2009, so my little Bryan decided to "learn" how to likes cap for the first time!! he's not a cap baby since a newborn, he always throwing it away and makes me give up to give him a bit of fashion look :D but not for this new year! he even can pose with it! good start son!

Merry Christmas 2008

Christmas is not about a party and a new dress...it's about a pure heart in understanding moment when our savior, Jesus Christ is willing to come to this world and save us..

Wishing you a blessed Christmas everyone... ;)

On your first birthday..

Dear Bryan...

It's been a year since I first held you in my arms, within a year I witness so many of your first milestones, your first cry,your first smile,your first laugh,your first sound,first time you called us "papa" "mama" in one day, first time you hold up your head and flip over,your first time jabs,your first solid time, your first time overseas vacation, and others first of everything that i could not mention here one by one cause it'll take lots of space.

Mommy must said that it's been not very easy year for both of us.. as first time mother, mommy must learn everything from scratch.. listening and understanding you whether you need milk or comfort, try the best to give you only my breast milk for 6 months, which mommy failed cause your daddy must hospitalized cause of dengue and mommy must stay over to watch him when you're 5 months old, there's also been days when daddy must go to work feeling bit sleepy cause you keep waking everynights and refuse to go sleep again and other lots of struggle, tears and countless of uneasy day, but they are nothing compared to what you brought to our lives.

few years from now, you'll no longer dependent to us.. and mommy maybe not the one anymore, the one that you'll always looking for comfort and secure like now days, but deep inside our hearts.. you'll always be our baby and you can always looking for mommy for anythings cause I'm your mother, the one who'll always love you unconditionally, but before that time comes.. mommy and daddy are looking forward to enjoy countless beautiful years with you, to witness and to guide you become a great gentleman. let's grow up together son, you'll help us to become better parent everyday tough we're can never be perfect, but we'll always keep our best.

some people maybe can comment about your flaws but no matter what happen you're still our son, the one that mommy carried along for 9 months and 18 hours struggle between life and death to pop you out to this world,
we'll always love you son...and feel very blessed to have you in our life since you are the one who makes mommy and daddy life become so complete and perfect.

Have a blessed 1st birthday son...happy birthday!

Hugs and kisses,

Daddy & Mommy

Baby of the month

I was enter Bryan photo for fun to morinaga platinum website about a month ago, he was drink BMT Platinum formula cause the hospital where I was given birth use that brand. and it happened that he become baby of the month in august 2008, I was so surprise, never think that he'll win it. this photo was taken when he's ready to sleep at first night without his electric cradle and it was taken with my handphone camera, you can read my previous posting here.

Bye-bye Aqiu Hendri

My second brother, Hendri (I have 3 yonger brothers) is leaving Jakarta today, he's got a job offer at singapore, so my parents will be alone at home since my other brother is working at solo and the youngest one is still at bandung for college."bye-bye Aqiu Hendri, see you soon at singapore in few weeks, we'll eat hill st noodle and go swiming! ;)"

Auntie Jesicca Visit

My youngest brother, Edwin and her girlfriend, Jesicca is on holiday to Jakarta (they both went into college in Bandung), but Jesicca lives in Bandung, the last time when she saw bryan was 3 months ago, bryan still can't recognize people or pick certain people to hold him, but come to surprise my little precious is want to be hold with her in first try!when she's trying to transfer bryan to me, this little precious still wanted to be hold with jesicca! he's even smile, laughing and blink-blink his eyes with her! wow! daddy said that bryan is so "genit", knowing that there's a pretty girl held him and tried to attract her attention! too bad that bryan's face in picture was so serious since the camera blitz is very bright ;)

Passport

Bryan is took a photo shoot for his first passport at immigration, he's been behave very well, no crying or wailing even there's a lot of people stare at him when he's doing his photo shoot, and his photo result for passport is so cute!! ;)

17 August 2008

since nanny not around, the baby always stick around with mummy

with barney..no cry..no wailing..! cuek bebek! :D

with weird mickey


bryan with one of bike decoration contestant

ups!! bryan pulling out the decoration..

Happy 63 years of independence and as a tradition we're celebrate it with games,bazaar,show,etc in our house complex, yesterday there's games about searching pictures in our neighbor, a group of family members must search where's the place of picture is taken and take a picture of it use digital camera as a proof that we found that place, for example : they took picture of electric power with specific number and we must search where it is,take a picture of it by foot! our complex is quite big so its very tiring yet fun, I didn't join it,Bryan nanny is take a day leave since last Thursday until sunday,but I take bryan with his stroller for a ride around complex to support his daddy,yeye,and kuku.oh..and also enjoy free breakfast porridge ;)

this morning,I took bryan to bazaar and see bike decoration competition, there's a barney and mickey clown,come surprise..he's not affraid at all!! no crying or wailing even when the barney hold him!! he seem fine with it! wow! he's just like me, when I was a little girl, I also not afraid with clowns and it consider rare since clowns in my time is bit creepy.

Anniversary

this song become conair film soundtrack in 1997 and we watched conair in our first date...bit supriase found this song in that movie since we're not prepared for any romantic thing in action movie.

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my Life.

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?.

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I would be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?...

Please tell me baby..

How do I go on?
If you ever leave
Well baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know your everything good in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live

How do I live without you
How do I live without you baby.......
How do I live....
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Today, 11 years ago... i said yes to your question
never realize that the answer will change my life forever
we've been through lots in this 11 years
and after all this time, you're still the one i love
I love you darling, happy anniversary!

He sms me
" Dear, Happy 11 years anniversary, I love you more and more each day...no flowers, no present,no fine dining anymore but you have me sleeping beside you everynight now.yeahhh.. Love u" --- well darling,it counts as a present! its a blessing to have u in my life too..

Oma birthday

Before I was a Mom
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed
Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.
Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

I never knew I would love being a Mom

Mom,there's no enough space to write down a beauty of your heart in here yet it also still not enough to express how i feel about you, thank you for all your devotion,love and care. I hope i can be like you one day, a great mom with a great heart! Happy Birthday mom, I love you so much!! love, your beloved daughter.