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2011-08-14T17:36:00.000-07:00

I know.. i know..its been years since my last update, too many things happend and i've been so lazy to update my blog :)

Bryan is 3 years and 7 months now
and guess? he's gonna be BIG BROTHER next february :)

I'm pregnant with number 2...
so the gap age between them is 4 years and 2 months

I'm 12 weeks now..

compare to bryan, this time i feel much headache
but so far no morning sickness too *lucky me*

It's been 12 years...

2009-08-14T23:26:00.000-07:00

We're celebrate our 12 years dating anniversary today...
just like last year..no flower...no card...
but we manage to have late dinner and catch up a coffee...
after my our little darling doze off at 7.30 PM :)

20 months

2009-08-04T23:31:00.000-07:00

Nap 1-2 times depend on his mood
Love to smile and say cheesee everytime we want to take his picture
monkey see monkey do with his cousin
Moody eater
Throwing things and tantrums
Understand what I say and order
Addicted to barney
loves car
milk intake 400cc-500cc
12,2 Kg
still have limited words
Emotional update : can be moody sometimes, refuse to be hold and prefer to sit on floor, if I'm not on his back.. he often wants to throw himself to floor but most of the time he'll calm down by himself after I hold him and say nicely things

Say chezzzz...

2009-07-31T01:47:00.000-07:00

this is what Bryan monkey see-monkey do from his cousin, Naomi. everytime he knows that he want to be capture with camera, he'll put his fingers in his cheek, smile and say cheeezzz...oh and don't forget to "miringin dikit pala-nya" (put his head sideways little bit).

we're going for breakfast with Jason parents last Sunday, Jason is only 1 month younger than Bryan, I know Jason mommy from pregnancy forum Nov-Dec 07- Jan 08, we've regularly meet each others (with other mommies and their toddlers from forum) every month,but since Jason parents also live in kelapa gading area and loves food hunting, last sunday we're decide to hunting new restaurant together. the boys are playing together, take nap together while the parents are gossiping :)

I think toddlers learning faster if they see other toddlers doing something, for example... I've try to teach bryan word "FISH" but he never say it (as you can see there's an aquarium behind Bryan) but, after he heard jason repeat "FISH" so many times and point to an aquarium, suddenly yesterday he said word FISH! WOW! I think FISH is harder to say rather than KUKU, BOBO (sleeping),SUSU (milk), I've try to teach him to call his KUKU almost 2 months now and he still can't say it! and for Jason, he become expert in doing pose cheesseee after see bryan :).

Favorite corner

2009-07-28T01:02:00.000-07:00

"when I don't want to change clothes,I'll hide here.. "

"this is after mommy raise her voice, get ready to scold me"

"I'll pretend to cry to seek mommy attention"
"MAMAMAMAMAMAMAMAAMAMA..."

"oh..I think mommy camera is more interesting now"

this is he's fav. corner in our room, when he's wailing and refuse to do what I'm said.. he'll run to this corner and don't want to come out!! *shake head*

Clueless

2009-07-26T23:56:00.000-07:00

I'm clueless.. in finding the best way to teach Bryan discipline, having many people at home make him BIG HEAD!! for example.. If I'm scold him after he makes a mistake, he'll cry out loud to attract everybody attention, when he see someone who approach him when he's cry..he'll cry out even louder just like reporting that he's being scold by me and asking them to hold him, then..after he's in their arms,suddenly he'll stop cry!! but, if there's no one at home when I scold him, he'll not dare to move and will follow me everywhere (mostly he's running around the house and ignore when I said to sit nicely or asking to follow me)

the one who looks like his all time hero is my maid (who usually play and take care of bryan while I'm cooking,bath, or away for a while to market). I already ask her to get away everytime I'm discipline him, but still.. since the maid never scold him, he'll become big head in front of her!

this past few weeks i've notice that Bryan getting emotional attach with her,it's all start when bryan is having a nightmare and trouble sleep during nights, sometimes he can cry out loud while his eyes still close when I try to hold him, he'll refuse, throwing himself back to his box and cry even louder, Jaya and I trying hard to make him stop crying but failed! until my sis in law is knocking on my door and bring my maid inside my room. she's hold bryan in her arms and bryan stop cry right away!! *sigh* don't ask...I'm so jealous that time!

he knows and understand when I said "don't touch or mommy will pat your hands" but mostly he'll still doing it, so I'll ask where's your hand..he'll give his hands to me to pat and after that running away and DO IT AGAIN!! arghh...!! he still put everything into his mouth, still throwing things on floor and can pretend to cry with big drop of tears.

the one thing that makes me bit relieve now is he'll follow my words when we're outside, as long as we're not let him walk in outside..he can sit nicely on his pram, and when we're going to my mom house, he'll not dare to touch anything that I'm not allow him to touch! so everyone who see my little rascal outside always give me compliment! mostly they'll tell that he's a good boy, very calm and obedient (since he can sit nicely on his pram without wailing to get away). *shake head*

seriously, I'm clueless...

Blessed

2009-07-16T02:14:00.000-07:00

During our honeymoon cruise @ Halong Bay

Us :)

I've found this link and the story successfully bring tears to my eyes...and I feel blessed after reading it, we're never know what tomorrow will hold so everyday before I go to bed and after I wake up in the morning.. I start my day with morning prayer for my darling husband to have safe trip as he drive car to work,for my little Bryan, for my parents and brothers.

love your loved one like there's no tomorrow maybe it's not an easy thing to do, there's always an upside down in relationship but..I'm trying hard to do so :)

On daddy birthday

2009-07-13T00:18:00.000-07:00

Daddy celebrate birthday today..actually he's turn 30 but we're put 31 according to his chinese age (due of special order from his parents) and we're celebrate it at home together with whole family (read: my in-laws and sis-in laws) we've bought foods from outside and this year, bryan can blow candle with daddy also very kiasu to help daddy cut the cake, he even loves cake too..I bought ice fruit cake and he can finish all one slice :D

and as a surprise..mommy give daddy a cell phone from sony ericsson 510 :)

Happy birthday babe, thank you for being a great,caring ,wonderful husband and daddy for us wishing you good health, wisdom and forever young in heart :)

19 Months

2009-07-04T01:39:00.000-07:00

19 months with mommy sunglasses :)

Climbing up

2009-06-20T00:47:00.000-07:00

His new skill..climbing up!! now, he can climb by himself to sofa,bed and chair..give mommy more heart attack, so far I don't let him to step up on stair and safety gate in downstairs always close to prevent him to go upstairs unattended.

Nai-nai birthday

2009-06-15T00:58:00.000-07:00

Happy granny with her grand childs :)

say cheesseeeee :)

One and half year

2009-06-04T07:16:00.000-07:00

Nap 2 times.
Barney addicted.
Walking backward.
Calling me mama instead of mommy.
Sign languages.
Handy helper.
Terrible two strike.
Still limited vocabulary(his latest add are Nai-nai and Jie-jie).
Full teeth merge.
Noodles lover.
Obsessed everytime see car parking(he'll wave his hand and acting like he help to direct way).
Very active.
Love to smile and laugh to pretty girl.
Don't have "jambul" kind of hair anymore.
Running.
Climbing up chair.
Still attach to his pacifier and his security lamb blankie

11 Kgs

2009-06-01T06:22:00.000-07:00

Meal times can be so tiring when Bryan is not in the mood, he's quite picky eater nowdays ,he'll throw foods that taste weird, too big or hard to chew (but when it comes to his favorite foods,no matter how big or hard it is, he'll eat it!!) and when he's on strike, I must try hundred ways to make him finished his meal, it's either with prawn crackers, cheerios,his favorite biscuit or cheese! he'll also refuse to sit still in his seat after 4-5 spoon left and I must chasing him around to finished it! arghh...

he's very an active boy, he can't sit nicely more than 1 minutes! he'll keep walking,running and still giving me heart attack to see his silly move, I think that's why he's not gaining much weight since he's 1 year old..his weight is not more than 10,5 kg and it's goes upside down when he's sicked!

many people said he's bit small compare when he was baby,he's taller but his weight is not increase much, I already try to give him more portion when he's eat but it's so hard to make it constantly eat the same portion especially when he's on strike. he can wailing and crying till I give up (most of the time) to get him out from chair.

so, my mom in law decided to feeding him and asking me to out of his sight when he's eating ,since he can't be BIG HEAD in front of his nai-nai and kuku *hahahahaha* and it's work... this cheeky little boy of mine is sit nicely and finished almost twice portion from I used to feed him, everytime he's start to wailing or spit it up, his nai-nai will scold him and he'll chew it again (if I'm the one who scold him, he'll start to cry out loud,refuse to eat again and give me pathetic look to get him out from chair) so,after 2 weeks nai-nai feeding him,he's finally 11 Kgs! :)

My terrible two

2009-05-27T00:41:00.000-07:00

I was 2 years-3 months & 8 days when my brother, Victor came in this world and mostly people already forget what happened during that age but I still remember quite well how I made my parents (especially my mommy) out of her temper with my terrible two acts, seriously.. it's bad!!

I'm so jealous with my brother and trying hard to make mommy not love the baby, and this is what I did during my terrible two...crying out my lug just to attract everybody attention (with no reason), put my fingers in mouth in hope of vomit and get attention, broke mommy super expensive channel lipstick (and make it as crayon in wall and face), refuse to eat (it's very hard to make me chew), stamp my feet and many more...!! and what my mom did? sometimes she just doing nothing and let me stop by myself, sometimes she's mad,shout and hit my legs. I think I make her quite suffer in dealing with my terrible two,especially she don't have any nanny to look after me.

And now I just hope that Bryan terrible two phase is not bad as his mommy *kekekekeke* but it's starting already...!!

Self feeding?

2009-05-19T07:30:00.000-07:00

okay...I think it's still far from my expectation and still long way to call perfect but at least he's trying :) anyone can share their toddlers experience about self feeding? Bryan is showing interest in holding spoon but sometime he just playing with it and will cry if I try to tell him the right way to spoon feed.

Bryan in avatar

2009-05-17T02:04:00.000-07:00

I've found this cool site..and this is what I have created..

Bryan in avatar complete with his beloved pacifier and teddy bear!! oh..and the chick in front is represent of me.. (as I was born in year of roaster). can't stop laughing!

Spicy food

2009-05-04T02:20:00.000-07:00

I'm not a pizza lover..i can eat it but not very addicted, i only like chicken fav. pizza and eat 1-2 slice, surprisingly..when i was pregnant with bryan, I love pizza and even bugging jaya to bought it for me, i can eat 3-4 slice and even eat spaghetti too!! we're going to pizza hut for dinner today, and he is eating 1 slice pizza (only the bread..I've remove the toppings) and 4 spoon of spicy spaghetti!

I love spicy foods,when I was pregnant,i eat lots of chili, during breastfeeding I try to take chili sauce a little bit when he was 1,5 months and see how it goes, and apparently he can take it, he's poops normal and there's no rash, that's why I'm dare to take it again but always have limit (not as hot as i used too eat)

I've been noticed it few times, he loves spicy food too..compare to his cousin, naomi who always flame into red if eat bit of spicy food and drink lots water while bryan ask for more!! but he have his own limit of spicy food, not too hot lah..but amazingly he can take nasi padang (traditional Indonesian food and have lots of santan,curry,chili) hehehe...like mother like son! while daddy only shake head.

Showing his love

2009-05-03T08:53:00.000-07:00

this is what he's doing everytime we ask him "how to love ..(person name)?", he'll pat that person face gently to show his love and careness :)

Think positive & be blessed

2009-04-27T20:54:00.000-07:00

Most of my friends are asking me one same question when they're know that I'm living together with in-laws. "how you handle it?" or "you can tahan meh?" well, I'm not a superwoman yet (and i think i never be one) but I'm trying my best to adapt to family rules, of course it's not an easy task to do, there's lots of struggle along the way, eventough I'm already dating hubby for 10 years and quite understand his family member behavior but still it's not same when I must deal with it every minutes.

There's always two side of coins, the good one and the bad one, I can choose to be grumpy or I can choose to be happy and feel blessed, happiness is a choice and it was us who decided if we want to be happy or no, it just matter of a mindset, for me..living with in laws makes me learning and understanding something that I never thought before, I'm blessed to have this opportunity even there's upside down moments too, i think in this world,there's no such of perfect happily ever after family, built a happy family need lots of effort and struggle too but it was love who always stick on us forever.

I can't imagine how my mom in laws raise 5 children (all of them are 2 years apart) all by herself while she also must cooking for all family members (include her in-laws,sis and bro in laws), and to re-think I think my life is much much better than her, she's maybe "kepo" and fussy but that's all for my own good, I think she's trying to make me a better wife (and close a bit to her daughter in law criteria), every mother only want the best for her son and maybe I also can be like her one day when I think that my daughter in law is not take care of my son properly, and I can also feel sad if one day my son is reject or think that I'm only his burden and decided not to stay with me if he has a family and left me alone, it's part of a circle of life so instead of being complain, I think I should think it positive and be blessed :)

Standing up by himself

2009-04-15T08:59:00.000-07:00

I must say that bryan development is slow and bit messed up, he's prefer to walk first instead of crawling (he's master crawling after he master walking),he sit up by himself (without help) when he was 12.5 months (while the other babies master it at 8 months),he's perfectly rolling left-right when he was 8 months and now, he's able to stand up by himself unsupport at 16 months! better be slow than nothing, right?:)

16 months old at Sea World

2009-04-04T23:44:00.000-07:00

amaze with huge fish in front of him,he even cry when I take him to walk away so, he just stunning in front of it until another 10 min. :D

Us with Pepsi Baby Milo :)

it's so hard to take nice pic, since he keep looking for fish :(

with his partner in crime ;)

My father in law uncle (bryan's lau-cek-kong) is coming from Medan since last monday, so we're taking him to see fish at Sea World, and of course Bryan and Naomi come along too.. this is his second trip, the first one is on last December along with our relatives from Singapore, he's so excited see fishes and keep pointing when he see it.

and his 16 months big update are : he's finally can bend his body to pick up an object and standing up by him self from squad position *yeah*

Mommy new gadget

2009-04-03T00:59:00.000-07:00

Here's few reason why I'm finally change my N-73 handphone :

low memory (i just have 128 MB Memory card)
Battery leak (even i already charge it normally, it's only last for half day)
Unreasonable new battery prices

after months of searching and comparing, I've finally decide to buy N-79 to replace my N-73 :D
it comes with wi-fi, slim model with express cover changing and most important 5 megapixel camera with 4 G memory card!! All this time, I'm not using digital pocket camera to take bryan pictures daily, my panasonic camera still in my mom house,jaya sony digital camera is too old, the picture always blur since bryan can not stand still, and Jaya canon 40-D SLR camera is hardly out from our closet, even if he's taking a picture with it, I get lazy to resize and open since it will takes longgggg times since my asus laptop hard disk is run of space too *bwahahaha*

instead of blackberry and other smart phone, all i need is a nice camera handphone with better result picture from my N-73. actually, I'm also intersted with N-82 since the camera is come with xenon flash and the result photo is very clear, but I don't like the keypad.

so, today i'm officially using my new N-79 :)

Siblings?

2009-04-02T00:01:00.000-07:00

Many peoples are asking me, when will Bryan have brother/sister? cause most of them said that its better to have second child 2-3 years different from the oldest so they still can catch up and become playmate rather than wait until Bryan is 5 years old.

Yes,of course I want to give Bryan sibling to play with, Jaya and I are come from big families, I have 3 younger brother while Jaya have 4 older sister, when I was a little girl.. I'll always want to have 5 children, 3 older son-2 little twins girl, I even prepare names for them, of course bryan names also come from that list ;) but its when I was little and very naive! now, I think I only want 3 and really hope that my second child are twins since Jaya said he only want 2 :D

but back again,I think the question about second child is really personal one, people can ask,give opinion or share their experience but the decision is still on couples, is they're ready as in emotion and material? (since raising a baby needs LOTS of money) or their own commitment before married (maybe they just want ONE baby) some people can be very annoying and irritated in gossiping others, such as when they heard that Mrs X already pregnant again while her son just 4 months old or when they think that Mrs Y is not really a good mother since she give their children a nannies while she go shopping at mall.

We, as an outsider maybe don't now the truth and their personal reason behind all of that, maybe Mrs. X get married at 30 something and she think that she'll running out of time if she don't make another baby now or she just ready as in emotion and material, and maybe Mrs Y is a great mother, she do spend quality times with their children at home and maybe when they find Mrs Y shopping, it's her time to have me-time alone moment. who knows rite? we just an outsider.

and for me.. I have my own reason and fear about having a second child, I think I'll wait until Bryan is 3 years before having a second one, cause I can more focus to him now and spend more times before he's ready to go school but In other hand I also afraid that my second child is not as easy as Bryan (Bryan is consider an easy one), how can I divide my love to other baby or bryan get jealous with the baby, and so many others thoughts,which I'm sure some mother also think about it when get pregnant with the second one.

for this moment, I'm still enjoy my times with my little Bryan.

First Sunday school

2009-03-22T01:09:00.000-07:00

I've been waiting to bring bryan to sunday school since he's been able to walk but always delayed due to his nap times, the sunday school start at 11.00 and usually bryan nap is around 9.00-9.30 until lunch time (around 11.00-11.30) but today, his nap was early at 8.30 so I think that we can go to church on time,I'm prepare his lunch while he's sleeping and we're go to church after he's wake up around 10.00.

Since bryan is still 15 months, he's join babies class (0-18 months) but he's the oldest in the class,
and as I'm expected he's crying out loud when we're enter class room, refuse to go inside and want me to hold him, so I went outside, take him walk for a while and try to enter class room again,and he's crying even loud (kind of hysterical), but this time I'm not bring him outside anymore, I try to attract his attention with toys that provided in class (FAILED), give him tour in class (FAILED), his sunday school teacher try to hold him (EVEN WORST), put him on floor and ask him to walk around class (FAILED) and he's finally stop crying when he see a little baby girl crawling into him and pass her toys to him! he's suddenly smile to that baby girl (Chloe), walking away by himself and follow chloe inside a circle!!! I'm so jelouse! bwahahahaha..

but the rest is very smooth, he's enjoy his class and not very clingy with mommy anymore (want to be hold by his nanny) so mommy can take few pictures of this memorial day. too bad that I don't have time to take chloe picture with him.. :D

Opa birthday

2009-03-07T00:44:00.000-08:00

happy birthday dad, we love you very very much! :)

Us, 1 year ago this day.. *little Bryan and slimmer mommy*

and this is us one year ago,
jaya is not going since he's still in recovery after deque fever!

Opa is turn 60 years old today, so we're all have lunch at one of opa favourite restaurant, my brother, Victor is back from Solo (he's working at BCA Finanace as branch manager there) and my youngest brother, Edwin is back from Bandung (he's still in university) ony my second brother, Hendri is not back since he's working overseas (singapore).

Happy birthday daddy, the happiness is not about being perfect but seeing beyond the imperfection Have a wonderful day! :)

15 Months

2009-03-04T06:53:00.000-08:00

Barney addicted
Still can't speak or repeat words (his vocabulary still limited..only mamam,papa,mama,mbak)
Throwing tantrums (can cry for no reason and sometime can hit his own head with his hand)
In this past few week, he's scream quite lots (but I think its still okay compare to high tone of his cousin)
still very clingy with me
can put his own pacifier into his mouth and still need it for sleep
knows dog and cat *thanks to barney*
Meal times is up side down depends on his mood of the day but still consider OKAY!
Twice naps (if i'm lucky he can sleep until 2 hours plus in one nap,but normally only 1-1.5 hours each nap)
sleep at 7.30-8.00 pm
Can walk quite well but still not master enough since he's still can't squad and stand up without hold into things
crawling perfectly *but still in normal speed.. his speed is far if compare to his cousin*
loves walking can't not stay still for 5 minutes
can do kiss and sayang (touch people face gently to show his love)
understand names of few things
10,4 kgs and 81 cm

New sandal

2009-02-28T06:18:00.000-08:00

Since he's been able to walk,his kuku give him sandal an it can make a sound when he walk with it *ik-uk-ik-uk* he's really love it, giggles and walking around non stop! he's even can understand in just one day where's his sandals and give it to me if i order him to do so!!

I must say that his walking style still scary, he's not master enough and still give me heart attack,he's bump him self few times, few days ago he bump into floor and i think his teeth bump his lips,it's bleeding out and makes mommy heart stop!! I give him special chinese medicine to stop his bleeding and reduce his pain (Ang hong sua), lucky that after 10 minutes, he's not crying anymore and seem normal only leave his lips bit swollen but it already back to normal again now.

Visiting Noah and Johan

2009-02-26T06:39:00.000-08:00

Bryan and I are went to Astrid apartment today, she's friend from my junior highshcool friend, she used to live in singapore but now she will be in town for a moment. Bryan had so much fun with her two little boys, Noah (2,5 years) and Johan (9 months old). thank you auntie Astrid.. :)

Teeth development

2009-02-25T23:33:00.000-08:00

Bryan teeth development is consider faster, when he was 5,5 months his pearly white 1 upper and 1 lower are shown up and when he was 9 months old his teeth are 8! now, in 15 months old both of his cuspid upper and lower are shown up which explain why he's bit cranky and refuse to eat in this past few days, now sign of fever (he never get a fever when his teeth are shown up) only lots of drooling and bad appetite. my in-laws said that it's because his cuspid, it can connect to his nerve and make him less comfortable, that's also explain a night crying for this past few days cause maybe he's accidentally bump and touch his cuspid when he's sleeping, but so far there's no sign of gumboil. it consider lucky since I heard most of babies are bit cranky and can get fever or even diahrea when their teeth are shown up.

So,he have 12 pearly white now :)

Baby safety

2009-02-17T09:35:00.000-08:00

Long before Bryan is able to walk, my father in law is already thinking how to makes our house become safety, since our house have 3 floors, non-safety stairs and balcony design, he's start hunting baby safety gates at babies store in order to get image and inspiration in how to deploy it at our stairs and after he have a design, he's calling people who makes our stairs to make it otherwise the material and the color will not matching with our stairs. and for the balcony in second floor.. he's cover it all with a thick transparent board so when bryan is running over to balcony he'll be safe :)

thank you yeye..:)

Happy Valentine

2009-02-14T09:03:00.000-08:00

It's a valentine's day but there's no special celebration on this day, we're just hanging out at Senayan city mall with my parents and auntie since it's saturday.

we used to make it special when we're on our early years of dating since every valentine day also happened to be our half year anniversary, I remember when we're saying happy anniversary on every months until we're forget how many months we've been together, but as long as I remember there's less than 5 valentine cards that jaya has give me during our 11 years relationship.

so, no card,flowers,gift,and fine dining since he's always said "everyday is valentine day for us!" *lol* but we are giving Bryan a valentine heart balloon to play with ;)

Happy valentine's day and 11.5 years anniversary babe.. ;)

Ultra High Temperature (UHT) milk

2009-02-10T10:01:00.000-08:00

I've start to mixed his formula with UHT (Ultra High Temperature) milk since he's already 1 years old now, the doctor also said it's better to drink UHT milk if he's over 1 year since it's all vitamins that contains on milk is not being process and added like a formula so it's more fresh and healthy.

Lucky that Bryan can take both of milks without any complain and so far there's no sign of allergic due to milk changing *happy laughing* now he's drink UHT milk 2 times in morning and afternoon while he's drink formula twice during night.

14 Months

2009-02-04T08:43:00.000-08:00

Expert in using straw
Drink UHT milk and formula
Somehow become picky eater
Can walk independently but still gives mommy faster heart beating
Nap time still 2 times a day (after morning bath and after lunch)
His vocabulary still the same from last month
Can give a right things to a right person if we're asking "give remote to .."
Still very clingy to me
Now where's his shoes,dot-dot (pacifier),security blanket and his teddy bear
Have 12 pearly tooth (his cuspids are just emerged)
Can point to a thing that he wants
Still on pacifier

Bryan and his uncles

2009-01-28T08:35:00.000-08:00

Happy chinese new year

2009-01-27T07:00:00.000-08:00

My two "baby" boys on new year morning ;)

Three of us during reunion dinner

Bryan with his Yeye, Nai-Nai and Naomi @ Reunion dinner 25 January 2008

Learning how to walk

2009-01-23T06:07:00.000-08:00

Surprise! When I thought that bryan will takes a while to walking since he's just master sit by him self from lying position, crawling , and stand up with help few weeks ago, I'm quite happy to see that he's now can walking without support a few step from last week, but he's still up both of his hands as a balance and still can't stand up without support by himself.

It's quite scary to see him learning how to walk independently since sometimes he's refuse to be hold by me and if i'm not hold his hand..he'll walk very fast and it gives me heart beat racing when he's suddenly stop, turn around or even when he decided to moving his body front-back like it's gonna fall down *shake head*

Toilet Training

2009-01-22T20:06:00.000-08:00

This is what my little boy do every morning after he's wake up, poo.. he's been doing it since 3.5 months until now, thanks to my mother in law who push me hard to make him poo on his potty every morning, amazingly ever since he's 3.5 months until now he don't poo on his pants or his diapers, if he skip his poo time in the morning, he'll give a gong-gong faces later and I'll rush him to his potty. when we're on vacation to singapore last year he skip his poo times while we're already had a plan that day, so before we go, i tell him to poo otherwise i'll not bring him out that day ,and he start calm and do it. well.. okay as long as i remember there's 3 little accident, but that's still amazing record for me since most of other babies still can't do it in their early months.

but I'm still find a way to know his reaction for pee since he's still can't speak yet, he's using washable diapers pants now,but its either he don't want to pee when I try to pee him or when I find that his pants already wet, its only few times I success to bring him pee.

Longest night ever

2009-01-19T20:31:00.000-08:00

It's around 8.30 PM on sunday evening when I heard a big explosion that makes all windows and doors in my house shaking hard then a few minutes later it appears that there's a fuel tank explosion, near my house area. the flame can be seen very clearly on my 3rd floor balcony, we can't sleep since many people has called and told us to get evacuate from house since the location is very near and after 2 hours the heat from the flame can be feel even we're inside house, we're afraid that the fire will spread to our neighbours. so I've decided move with bryan to my parents house since the location is quite far from the explosion.

It's bit raining when we're leaving house at 11.30 PM and it become heavy raining when we're arrived at my parents house, too bad bryan's decided to woke up and don't want to sleep again when we're arrived there and he become bit cranky when he still can't sleep until 2.30am, so I try to put him sleep on sling and come downstair, it's when I realized that the water has enter my living room and when I see outside, the water already reach my car park too, my brother and father are rush to evacuate the car to higher place while I'm busy mopping floor and put things to higher place with my mother. my bryan finally a sleep after he's laughing and smile when he's see me mopping floor *sigh* I hardly not sleep that night, the water enter house until ankle while outside is higher.

And about the fire...no need to tell..it extinguished around 5.00 AM and don't spread to any areas. from big fire to big flood..all in one night at kelapa gading *shake head*

Mommy birthday

2009-01-10T06:42:00.000-08:00

I'm turning 1 year older today,since i share the same birthday with one of my uncle, we're celebrate it together at big family dinner, but bryan is not join for dinner since it pass of his sleep time and he'll get cranky, so I've decided to blowing my candle with bryan at home before I go there.

13 months

2009-01-04T22:00:00.000-08:00

nap 2 times a day (after morning bath for 1/2-1 hour and after lunch for 1-2 hours)
can stand up by himself but still can't stand up from squad position
can sit up by himself
can crawling in a right way (using both of his knee)
love soup,cheese and his baby biscuit
can walk steady few step without support but still use both his arms to balance
can do high five,high five,kiss bye,clapping hands,grin his eyes
can know and point when we ask his head,tummy and belly button
very clingy with mommy
very active boy can't stay still for a while
since know how to walk, gives me backache cause i'm still guide him and hold his both arms
can grab and put his own pacifier to his mouth
understand few orders such as : NO *for not touching or doing things*, "give me.." *to give me something in his hand*, "sit nicely..", "where's..." * he can look to a right person when we ask*
share restaurant food with us so far he's favorite is noodle from Bakmi Gajah Mada
his vocabulary still limited only "mama","papa", "mamam" (ask for eat), "apa" (what?), "mbak" (his nanny) and other baby mumblings

Jane and the dragon

2009-01-03T00:39:00.000-08:00

Just when I thought that Bryan is not a television boy,suddenly today he successfully stay quite watching jane and the dragon cartoon and this is the first time he 's seem really enjoy the show, he used to ignore it when I try to keep him still for a while,but when I try to change the channel, he's start to wailing, ask me for the remote *he pointed at it* so, I switch again to jane and the dragon show, and then he's stay quite again, watching it with a super cute serious mimic until the show finished!! (it's about 20 minutes).

I only want my mommy!

2009-01-02T21:29:00.000-08:00

Bryan is on phase of separation anxiety, most of the time he's only want ME to hold, hug and cuddle him, he can cry for no reason when he see ME walking out the door or off his sight for a moment, sometimes when he's awake from nightmare and cry, he only can comfort by ME, when he wants to sleep, most of the time he only wants ME who sing his favourite lullaby, Twinkle-twinkle little star, he wants go to with ME to bathroom when I need to pee and he want ME to take him walk (which is leaves me a backache for few days)

it's a LOT and of ME! but as a mother I try to enjoy it as long as I can (even sometimes i must admit its bit hard for me too ), there will be a phase when he will feels that ME is not this much important again, so I better enjoy the moment when I'm his VIP person before some girl steal away my position! *wink*

Welcome 2009

2009-01-01T21:19:00.000-08:00

It's a new year...and also a fresh start for 2009, so my little Bryan decided to "learn" how to likes cap for the first time!! he's not a cap baby since a newborn, he always throwing it away and makes me give up to give him a bit of fashion look :D but not for this new year! he even can pose with it! good start son!

Meal update

2008-12-30T20:06:00.000-08:00

With Aqiu- Edwin @ Plaza Senayan

"I'll do everything that u ask me to do mom,
as long as you keep feeding me with those yummy food"

bakpao lovers, he finshed 2 bakpo all by himself
(I don't give him the meat only bun)

Since Daddy is on holiday until 4 January, we're going to mall almost everyday and most of the time when we're having lunch or dinner at restaurant my little boy also curious about our meal and even tough he's already have his own he'll still ask for ours, so either I'll spare mine or order a light snack for him, he's very happy everytime we feeding him and also come to my surprise he'll suddenly master everything that we're ask him to do even some skill that I often teach him but he never able to do it!!

his appetite is great, for lunch and dinner I give him steam rice not a soft porridge anymore and my cooking become more variant since I try a new recipes almost everyday, but so far his favorite is misua,salmon soup with veggie and kwetiau! he's into soup so much, it easier to feed him if there's a soup inside.

Merry Christmas 2008

2008-12-25T22:03:00.000-08:00

Christmas is not about a party and a new dress...it's about a pure heart in understanding moment when our savior, Jesus Christ is willing to come to this world and save us..

Wishing you a blessed Christmas everyone... ;)

Weddings and Birthdays Party

2008-12-23T05:26:00.000-08:00

It's been months of weddings and 1 year birthday party marathon for me start from last november until second week of this month, I've attend to 2 cousin wedding from hubby side, 1 cousin wedding from my side, 3 friends wedding and 5 birthday party (6, include of bryan's birthday party)!! 2 of that birthday party even in one day!! so,I've been busy attending to all that parties on saturday-sunday while in weekday I also help around for my cousin wedding.

and after all that parties end, my relatives from singapore also visit us for 2 weeks and just come back last sunday.. in the end.. now i've caught runny nose, coughing and nose block... *sigh* It's very FUN and very TIRING! just when I thought I can get my beauty sleep.. Bryan's decided to wake up in the middle of the night for 3 days in row and refuse to sleep again for 2-3 hours!! so, he's wake up around 1am until 3am-4am and sleep again until his normal wake up time which is around 7am and during that awake time his eyes is wide open and fully charged! so, sicked mommy also can't sleep! HUAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....

sleepy and tired mommy hopes that it just part of growing up that will end soon TONIGHT!!

crawling

2008-12-15T06:17:00.000-08:00

I know it's bit late since most of babies can master it less that one year old but I'm happy to annouce that Bryan's finally standing up by himself in his crib using his own knee 2 days ago (I used to help him stand up) yesterday, he's officially crawling using his knee and today he can sit by himself from lying position.

Jaya and I are guessing how long it gonna takes for Bryan from this step to walking but we're so happy that he's finally did it, well done son!!

On your first birthday..

2008-12-04T05:19:00.000-08:00

Dear Bryan...

It's been a year since I first held you in my arms, within a year I witness so many of your first milestones, your first cry,your first smile,your first laugh,your first sound,first time you called us "papa" "mama" in one day, first time you hold up your head and flip over,your first time jabs,your first solid time, your first time overseas vacation, and others first of everything that i could not mention here one by one cause it'll take lots of space.

Mommy must said that it's been not very easy year for both of us.. as first time mother, mommy must learn everything from scratch.. listening and understanding you whether you need milk or comfort, try the best to give you only my breast milk for 6 months, which mommy failed cause your daddy must hospitalized cause of dengue and mommy must stay over to watch him when you're 5 months old, there's also been days when daddy must go to work feeling bit sleepy cause you keep waking everynights and refuse to go sleep again and other lots of struggle, tears and countless of uneasy day, but they are nothing compared to what you brought to our lives.

few years from now, you'll no longer dependent to us.. and mommy maybe not the one anymore, the one that you'll always looking for comfort and secure like now days, but deep inside our hearts.. you'll always be our baby and you can always looking for mommy for anythings cause I'm your mother, the one who'll always love you unconditionally, but before that time comes.. mommy and daddy are looking forward to enjoy countless beautiful years with you, to witness and to guide you become a great gentleman. let's grow up together son, you'll help us to become better parent everyday tough we're can never be perfect, but we'll always keep our best.

some people maybe can comment about your flaws but no matter what happen you're still our son, the one that mommy carried along for 9 months and 18 hours struggle between life and death to pop you out to this world,
we'll always love you son...and feel very blessed to have you in our life since you are the one who makes mommy and daddy life become so complete and perfect.

Have a blessed 1st birthday son...happy birthday!

Hugs and kisses,

Daddy & Mommy

Almost a year progress

2008-11-27T23:32:00.000-08:00

Bryan's almost a year now in few days and he's making lot of progress in his motorik development .
he can waving with cute style like a lucky cat (it's often find in restaurant to bring more customer to come), he know where's his head when we ask it, clapping hand, make "mata genit", shake hand,do hi-5, his vocabulary also increase he can say "mamam" referring for eat, "mama" with a spoil sound when he needs my help, "apa" ("what") but i'm still not sure he's really understand what its mean but he's mumbling it lots, "mbak" for calling his nanny, "yeye" reffering to my father in law, he's also can point his hand in oder to want something.

He also can cruise in his box or table, he can step foward when we walk him on floor but his balance still not very good, in emotional behaviour he's often crying as a weapon if I don't give him what he wants but I'll ingore him until he's tired and stop crying, I don't want him to grown up become a spoil boy and for dicipline him, I often slap my hands, showing my "mad face" and said "NO" if he wants to do something that not allowed, so far he's understand it and don't try to repeat it.

he's sleep 2 times for nap, sometimes he can sleep 2 hours on each nap (nap time around 9.00-9.30 until lunch time 11.00-11.30 and 14.00 until 16.00) and his sleep time is about 19.00 until 06.30-07.00 in the morning, his take 160cc of milk and drink about 800-850cc/daily, he eat 3 times (cereal with banana in the morning, porridge twice for lunch and dinner)

eventhough he can cruise very well..he still can't crawling using his knee and because he can't using his knee, he also can't sit by him self from lying position and he's also still need my help to stand (he can stand by himself if there's a table or low cabinet so he can hold into it to up his body)

maybe now his development progress is a bit slow but I'm sure he'll amaze me in the next few months for his amazing progress.

Bryan's 1st birthday party

2008-11-24T20:17:00.000-08:00

We're throwing an early birthday party for bryan's since his birthday is on Thursday, 4th and on 7th december, my cousin will be married and I'll be busy helping around so there's no time for bryan's party. the party is held on Saturday,22 November 2008 at Hawaii Vegetarian Restaurant,Muara Karang, why I choose Vegetarian restaurant? well, Jaya and I think its good for him to have a first birthday party without killing animal beside it's healtier and also have a good tatse too ;)

I've invited 80 people since the restaurant take a minimum order for 100 people, party decorations and goodie bag are made by bryan's kuku while I ordered thomas and friends birthday cake from dapurvita, the cake decoration is same with bryan's invitation, I've choose thomas and friends theme for his first birthday party.

Too bad Bryan's is already sleepy when it comes to a candle blowing so I didn't get a good picture of him blowing a candle.

11 Months

2008-11-04T07:04:00.000-08:00

can move forward with army style and very fast
understand what when i say "NO"
still can't sit by him self from lying position
loves to eat (Thank's God)
Nap 2-3 times (if 2 times it means he's sleep longer during noon 1,5-2,5 hours/nap)
know where's his head,clap hands,mata genit
can stand up by himself with help
can moving around in his box
drooling
still on pacifier
vocabulary : "mamam" referring to eat "papa" "mama" "yeye" "mba" referring to his suster
sleep times around 7.00pm-6.30pm last milk drink at midnite
favorite snack : chedar cheese smoked
eat solid 3 times/day (2 times smooth porridge)

swap and meet die cast market

2008-11-02T19:42:00.000-08:00

We're going to swap and meet collection cars market at Gelora Bung Karno,Senayan today, it's a swap and meet for daddy hobbies,he collect miniature cars since we're dating 11 years ago,so i've got familiar with this model cars collection, and bryan's soon will get infected too and join the club with his daddy and yeye hunting for a new collection, just like today..

it's a market for collector to sell or swap it held every first sunday and third sunday of the month, all the collection is show in their car baggage, so daddy is hunting for his tomica collection and bought few of them there, while bryan's enjoy the market and sit nicely in his stroller.

we don't go to mall since there's a boom issue related to death execution of the bali boomers within this week, so after having a nice dinner at korea restaurant in kelapa gading, we're going home ;)

Influenza

2008-10-23T19:28:00.000-07:00

Bryan's caught his first time flue since few days ago, he's sneezing lots and his nose block, actually when he's down for fever, his doctor already said that he's show a symptom of influenza since his throat has infection and fever,so the doctor already gave me preventive medicine just in case that it turns out to be influenza.

luckly that his appetite still good, he's also sitll very active little boy,he's sleep well and longer for his recovery, no wailing or crying in the middle of the night even his nose block. :)

Finding the nanny

2008-10-17T18:57:00.000-07:00

We're back from holiday last sunday and found out that our nanny is not coming back again to work with us, so I've decided to sleep over in my mom house for few days and it happens that searching for a new nanny it's not so easy like it looks like, I've called almost 50 governess and nanny agent since last monday and all of them said out of stock and told me to wait few days! gosh! I've decided not to hire a experience nanny since I'll only need her around to look after Bryan while I'm taking bath or cooking and doing the laundry and cleaning.

so..when i think I'll wait for next week for start looking again, one of agent call me, she said that there's stock for nanny but she's still don't have experience at all since she just came to Jakarta for 2 weeks and just finish 1 week first education as nanny, VIOLA! that's exactly what I'm looking for! the best part is.. her basic salary is also come in good price, half price from my former nanny! and they can drop her to my house so i don't need to pick her up in agent, if i think she's fulfill my criteria after interview, she can directly working and if i think she's can't, i just need to pay the transport fee!

and it appears that she's fulfill my first criteria, she want to help around with house cleaning (most experince nanny don't want to do houseworking and only want to take care baby), she don't have handphone (which is good otherwise she'll busy like bee just like my former one) and still very innocent since it's her first time to jakarta ;)

Recovery times

2008-10-11T08:36:00.000-07:00

my sis-in law (naomi mom) and me during our mask days, we're both down for flue :(

playing domino ;)

since bryan and I still in recovery, we're not going anywhere for few days meanwhile my sis in law also got infected with flue so we're all stay at home, resting and playing domino! well,bryan is grounded from going anywhere since he's got fever so sometimes while he's taking nap, jaya is look after him while I sneak out for craving food at tiong bahru market ;)

Bryan many strollers

2008-10-10T06:47:00.000-07:00

Bryan's prepare to take nap during our trip to ikea

Bryan's @ MRT..sleeping ;)

Bryan's usual stroller

I've bring bryan usual stroller but since it only have 1 position, it makes him hard to sleep in comfort way.. so mostly I should put him to sling when it comes to nap but apparently my ta-ku is lend me her maclaren stroller and her friend also lend another stroller too so, I have 3 stoller and 2 baby (oh, i forgot to mention that naomi,bryan 6 month older cousin also come along for holiday) so mostly naomi use the first stroller in picture but when we're planning travelling with taxi I'll bring my usual stroller since it's easier to fold,so when naomi isn't sleep bryan will take over the stroller to take nap while naomi is using bryan's but it only hapend few times and for the rest..i'm using mclaren stroller, bryan can easily sleep in this stroller and it make me easier since i dont have to hold him in sling ;)

so far, my holiday is great... bryan is being a good boy! it's really beyond my expectation, he's totally in good mood, no wailing or crying, I just put him on stroller and only hold him for a while in sling when he's bored, and when we're travel alone (just me and bryan) he seem to understand when i said "we're going now, but be a good boy, don't ask mommy to hold you, mommy hands kind of busy pushing stroller while you in my sling" and he'll go straight sleep and only wake up when we're almost home, even when he's down for fever, he still can laughing and smiling, he's only not sleep well and wake up few times but get back sleep easily on the night when his temperature reach 39.5 degree.

First time fever

2008-10-09T07:46:00.000-07:00

I've got flue and cough last sunday, jaya is already down for cough since 2 days after we're arrived and apparently I've got infection too, the worst part.. bryan is got fever two days ago his temperature is 38.2 in the morning, I'm already give him tempra drop which i bring from jakarta but he still warm, so after 2 times give him tempra and no result of getting better, I try naomi medicine, her doctor gave it when she's having high fever and lucky that her mother bring it (bryan and naomi have same pediatrician) I hardly can't sleep since i'm too busy checking on his temprature every hour and also bryan woke up few times, feeling unwell.. so i must comfort him by tap his body and put his pacifier cause everytime it's felt down he'll awake and search for it,around 3.00 am his temprature up to 39.5 degree, I gave him medicine once more and thanks God, he's temprature back to normal in the morning. but it don't last...in the afternoon he's temperature raise again to 38.5 degree, so i've decided to bring him to doctor at tiong bahru children clinic below tiong bahru plaza.

Dr. Edmund koh, the pediatrician told me that bryan is having sore throat infection (maybe he's infected by me) and the temprature is 38.6 so, he's give bryan capsul in his buttock (yeah, that capsul go inside bryan's butt) he said that if bryan temprature is higher than 38.5 degree then i must give him again that capsul, so i told bryan to fight the infection since i don't want to give it anymore, he also give one antibiotic and few medicine just in case bryan have a nose block or flue. Thanks God, the medicine works very well on Bryan, soon after he's back from doctor his temprature is 37.4 degree and never up again. but, amazingly.. he's still in good mood, still can laugh and smile like nothing happend, he's still easy to take nap, still have a good appetite, still very active boy. Praise Lord for his amazing grace.

First time swimming

2008-10-04T22:36:00.000-07:00

Bryan is 10 months old today and as his present,I took him swimming for the first time, there's a swimming pool down our apartment and my brother,Hendri is join us since Jaya still in recovery from his runny nose ;) my little boy is really loves water, he keep smiling,laughing to us and enjoy his time in water. basicly,he's really in a happy mode today and it makes mommy and daddy happy too.

10 Months

2008-10-04T22:23:00.000-07:00

Can move backward quite fast
Still can't crawling
can circle around using his chest and hands
Very-very active boy
Can pull himself up but still need my hands to help
love to stand up and explore things
if he stand up,sometimes he can walk 1-2 step with my help
still can't sit by himself from lying position
smile when people smile and laugh when people laugh
can play peek a boo
Going aboard to Singapore and riding an airplane for the first time
loves to eat,eat everything that we feed him
Going swimming for the first time and love it!
can do "mata genit", smile and grin...

Smooth trip

2008-09-27T05:55:00.000-07:00

It's been a quite long day for bryan since we're leaving home early in the morning around 8 am while our flight was at 13.00 pm, we've decided to leave early to avoid a traffic jam and a long queue for check in at airport, while we're waiting for our flight in executive lounge bryan is taking his nap in sling and wake up around 12 to have his lunch (I've prepared Heinz baby food for his lunch)

the flight is on time so after we're enter boarding room, we're straight away going inside and about 5 minutes later, the gate closing and we're ready to take off, i've prepared 6 baby bites and 3 cheddar smoked cheese for bryan in hope he's busy eat and didn't notice the take off, well.. it's quite work out, he's eat and come to surprise he's quite enjoying sound of airplane when it's prepared to take off, he's stunned for a moment and making serious face to listen then he's looking at me and smile..a happy smile!! wow! sort after that he's taking his nap and wake up 10 minutes before we're landing, landing also great, he's seem happy and look over the window when we're arrived. so.. i just hope return flight also this smooth ;)

after we're reach apartment at tiong bahru, nai-nai (my mom-in law has arrived there a day before us) already prepare warm porridge for bryan and his ta-ku (my eldest sis-in law who live in spore and never met bryan before) busy playing and feeding him, so I can relax for a while to take shower and prepare bryan things, sleeping time is also smooth! bryan's sleep around 8.00 pm (7.00pm jakarta time) and only wake 1 time around midnight to have milk and go straight sleep again,he's very tired,i can tell since he's heavily breath with his mouth open wide, so after he's sleeping, jaya is look for him while I went to tiong bahru plaza which is only across from our apartment to have some dinner.

not bad for first day..but, we're still have 2 weeks more here ;)

Baby of the month

2008-09-21T07:09:00.001-07:00

I was enter Bryan photo for fun to morinaga platinum website about a month ago, he was drink BMT Platinum formula cause the hospital where I was given birth use that brand. and it happened that he become baby of the month in august 2008, I was so surprise, never think that he'll win it. this photo was taken when he's ready to sleep at first night without his electric cradle and it was taken with my handphone camera, you can read my previous posting here.

Holiday wishes

2008-09-18T01:19:00.000-07:00

Week a way from our first holiday, exciting and worry.. mommy haven't pack anything yet unless 2 can of Bryan usual milk and 1 pack GOON pampers (I've decided to bring 1 pack only (44 pcs) since pampers price in there is too expensive and they don't sell GOON brand unless I buy it online) I've also prepare some medicine for fever, flu-cough and diare (but I'm HOPING he's FINE during this holiday), Bryan never had serious illness since newborn, during his 9 months he never caught flue-coughing and diare, etc just bit warm when he's got his DPT immunization when he was 4 months old!

I wish Bryan stay quite or sleeping during our flight since it was a full flight and I can't imagine if he's crying out loud for whole trip!! I wish we can get seat in front so there will be more space for me to stand up and hold him in case he's wailing which mean we must arrive at airport early to get best seat (I've check online check in but they don't open in front seat)

I wish Bryan can adjust sleeping in a new place, in this past weeks putting Bryan to sleep and nap is easy, he can easily sleeping using sarong sling or with his stroller, and I'm really hope this will continue during our holiday. he's wake up around 5.30 am, nap at 9.00 am, 1.00 pm, 4.00 pm and bed time around 7.00 pm.

I wish for a good weather so I can take Bryan around without worry about raining (but, I've heard the weather is not too good now) oh.. don't FORGET to bring small UMBRELLA!! I've planning to meet some of my friends there, so I'm really hope that Bryan in his best mood during this holiday.

And the most important thing is I wish that I'm stay healthy during this holiday so I can take care Bryan, but I believe that He'll guide and provide the best thing for Bryan and me so I shall not worry too much. ;)

Have Faith.No matter what lies ahead. Hold onto your Faith.

Standing up

2008-09-10T01:19:00.000-07:00

Now Bryan legs are strong enough to support his body eventhough he's still not able to pull him self up, he's very curious about standing up now, usually he can sit nicely and sleep in car but now he's very active, can't sit nicely for a minute!always wailing until we stand him up,I just hope that he can sit nicely without wailing or crying when we're in airplane!!

Playing with daddy

2008-09-05T22:20:00.001-07:00

Bryan love his daddy so much, everytime when his daddy back from office, he'll keep wailing or insist us to follow his daddy around until he can hold by him, when he's in his baby walker he can follow his daddy around,everytime daddy move he'll move too,grab his daddy boxer,and ask him to hold.sometimes he's already sleepy when daddy arrived at home, but will suddenly fully recharge when he see him, they'll play around about half hour until he's doze off.

Bye-bye Aqiu Hendri

2008-09-05T18:48:00.000-07:00

My second brother, Hendri (I have 3 yonger brothers) is leaving Jakarta today, he's got a job offer at singapore, so my parents will be alone at home since my other brother is working at solo and the youngest one is still at bandung for college."bye-bye Aqiu Hendri, see you soon at singapore in few weeks, we'll eat hill st noodle and go swiming! ;)"

9 Months

2008-09-04T18:18:00.000-07:00

still can't crawling but love to move forward to grab things
can sit very well but still can't sit by himself from lying position
can up his chest long enough but still can't up his butt
love to stand but still can't stand by him self
can blink-blink his eyes and grin
eat porridge two times a day (start from TODAY)
if he see us eat something he'll ask for it (mumbling "mam..mam" and open-close his mouth)
Know how to do "bye-bye"
can dance (moving his hands up and down) if he hear his fav. song "twinkle-twinkle little star"
Understand if i say "no-no"
sleep at 7.00-7.30pm and wakes up at 4.30-5.00 am in morning
take a nap 3 times (morning around 2 hours and afternoon only half hour)
drink milk 5-6 times/ day. around 750cc/day
Love to going out side
Easy boring with things (he's often wailing when he's at home,but when he's going out, he will smile and happy all day!!)
Love to discover things
Separation anxiety and jealousy (he'll cry when he see me ready to go, he'll cry if i hold his niece and not hold him)
have "jambul" kind of hair (hairless in left and right but have more hair in middle)

I don't wear cap

2008-09-02T07:29:00.000-07:00

Bryan caps collection now become useless! when i was pregnant with Bryan, I've bought few caps for him, some of them is for 12-24 months old and then my friends also bought him caps as present (some of them is very cute!) he doesn't like to wear caps since he was a newborn, he's keep crying if i put cap in his head and only stop when i open it,basiclly he don't like anything that put in his head and now since he's been able to get rid of it, i think I'll put all his caps collection in box!

Machine riding

2008-09-01T06:48:00.000-07:00

I'm bring Bryan to timezone for some machine riding for the first time and he's really enjoy to riding it, he even don't want to get out from that machine and keep wailing if it stop or try to get him out ,so he's riding it 8 times!! my friend said to wait until he can ask for what he wants, he'll keep ask me to bring him to timezone almost everyday like what her son do now.

he's very curious about how it can make such a noise and get him upside down and i can't get a better picture since mostly his mouth is open when he's riding it ;)

Behind wheel

2008-08-31T06:16:00.000-07:00

"Ok daddy, first thing I must keep my hands on wheel, rite?"

"Don't worry mommy..when I'm grown up, I'll drive u and company u shopping around"

Blink and Grin

2008-08-30T06:38:00.000-07:00

He's have a new skill to blink his eyes and grin at the same time ;)

Auntie Jesicca Visit

2008-08-29T08:33:00.000-07:00

My youngest brother, Edwin and her girlfriend, Jesicca is on holiday to Jakarta (they both went into college in Bandung), but Jesicca lives in Bandung, the last time when she saw bryan was 3 months ago, bryan still can't recognize people or pick certain people to hold him, but come to surprise my little precious is want to be hold with her in first try!when she's trying to transfer bryan to me, this little precious still wanted to be hold with jesicca! he's even smile, laughing and blink-blink his eyes with her! wow! daddy said that bryan is so "genit", knowing that there's a pretty girl held him and tried to attract her attention! too bad that bryan's face in picture was so serious since the camera blitz is very bright ;)

Passport

2008-08-28T08:24:00.000-07:00

Bryan is took a photo shoot for his first passport at immigration, he's been behave very well, no crying or wailing even there's a lot of people stare at him when he's doing his photo shoot, and his photo result for passport is so cute!! ;)

Liezaa farewell

2008-08-26T07:37:00.000-07:00

Ling-ling ,Me, Echie and Liezaa

My best friend, liezaa will go to beijing for a year to study mandarin in couple days so we went out for dinner at secret recipe in kelapa gading mall along with our other best friend,echie and liezaa cousin, ling-ling. I'll miss her so much but also happy for her since it's been her long dream. wish you all the best there,sis! *hugz*

Asparagus mushroom soup

2008-08-23T06:49:00.000-07:00

Since I don't have anything to do today, I'm trying to make an asparagus and mushroom soup to full fill my appetite, it was my first experiment on making this soup and it's turn out very yummy! not bad for beginner ;) here's the recipe :

Prepare :
-Half chicken (but u can add chicken bones to make soup more tasty)
-Asparagus
-Shiitake mushroom (hioko)
-wood ear mushroom (jamur kuping)
-carrot (cut into thin layer)
-white eggs (separated the yellow)
-wheat flour
-black soy sauce
-pepper
-salt
-fish soy sauce

How to make?
1. boil a water (chicken broth)
2. put a chicken inside until it tender, rinse, take out bones and chop chicken meat until small pieces
3. chop and boil asparagus separated about 3-5 minutes,make sure that it's not overcooked!!
3. cut all the mushroom into small pieces and put it all in water
4. put a carrot and asparagus
5. add fish soy sauce,black soy sauce,pepper and salt
6. put wheat flour until thick enough
7. put white eggs (for half chicken, you only need 1 eggs)

Back to work?

2008-08-20T23:47:00.000-07:00

I've got a nice job offer in one of company that I've been dreaming off to work there when I'm still single, one of my ex-client from that company contact me last week and asked my resume,the next day they're calling for an interview, I thought..not bad to give it shot, after all maybe I'm not the one they're searching for.

After lots of IQ test,4 interviews phase (HRD-USER-MANAGING DIRECTOR-HRD) they're offer me a position that I've been dreaming off, a good facilities and nice digit of salary (very nice), after discuss it with jaya, I've decided to put down that offer, I can't go back to work at this moment... and the only reason why I can't take that offer is because of my precious son, he needs my full attention and affection even I have "suster" to help me around still I can't go to work while half of my heart thinking about bryan all day long, it's part of myself commitment after marriage.... to raise and educate my son first, let say if I'm selfish and take that offer, bryan will raise and educate by his nanny,which for sure is far from my expectation. I've seen and heard lots story about kids who cry looking for their nanny when their nanny go back to their village and the mother can't stop their kids from crying, nanny who abandon kids while they busy to chit chat on phone,nanny who torture kids or lots more! I want Bryan have special bonding with me, knowing that I'll always be there for him no matter what happens and he always comes first in everything that I do.

so I better not take that job, even that offer is very tempting and hard to refuse but I won't regret it bryan is more important than anything for me now. to witness his first mumble,his first word,his first step is my greatest achievement beside who say that become a full time mother is not a job? it's the greatest job I've ever done!!

When babies around

2008-08-19T08:06:00.000-07:00

with nai-nai hair rolling

with additional "mustache"
Naomi : "arghhh" Bryan : "don't cry, otherwise we won't get a snack"

MAGIC STICKER for Headache...toothache...pimple

since Bryan and his cousin,naomi are very adorable and super duper cute, they're often become a "victim" or an object for laughing in family and they're seem fine with it ;) tsk..tsk..

17 August 2008

2008-08-17T07:15:00.000-07:00

since nanny not around, the baby always stick around with mummy

with barney..no cry..no wailing..! cuek bebek! :D

with weird mickey

bryan with one of bike decoration contestant

ups!! bryan pulling out the decoration..

Happy 63 years of independence and as a tradition we're celebrate it with games,bazaar,show,etc in our house complex, yesterday there's games about searching pictures in our neighbor, a group of family members must search where's the place of picture is taken and take a picture of it use digital camera as a proof that we found that place, for example : they took picture of electric power with specific number and we must search where it is,take a picture of it by foot! our complex is quite big so its very tiring yet fun, I didn't join it,Bryan nanny is take a day leave since last Thursday until sunday,but I take bryan with his stroller for a ride around complex to support his daddy,yeye,and kuku.oh..and also enjoy free breakfast porridge ;)

this morning,I took bryan to bazaar and see bike decoration competition, there's a barney and mickey clown,come surprise..he's not affraid at all!! no crying or wailing even when the barney hold him!! he seem fine with it! wow! he's just like me, when I was a little girl, I also not afraid with clowns and it consider rare since clowns in my time is bit creepy.

Calling for help

2008-08-15T05:07:00.000-07:00

He's always doing this when he need my help to hold him,get him to sit position or give him something that he wants but when he's in happy mood,he never say mama..he will say papapapapa and mumbling some other words. even though it's very tiring sometimes cause he can wailing so many times in short time but I'm still enjoy it so much,to hear my son calling me for help,it was my joy and pride as his mother and this is the moment that i'll treasure forever cause maybe in next few years he will busy with his own life and my presence will not become so important like today.

Ups!

2008-08-14T08:09:00.001-07:00

Anniversary

2008-08-14T06:02:00.000-07:00

How Do I Live Without You(空中監獄). - 黎安萊姆絲

this song become conair film soundtrack in 1997 and we watched conair in our first date...bit supriase found this song in that movie since we're not prepared for any romantic thing in action movie.

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my Life.

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?.

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I would be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?...

Please tell me baby..

How do I go on?
If you ever leave
Well baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know your everything good in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
O how do I live

How do I live without you
How do I live without you baby.......
How do I live....
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Today, 11 years ago... i said yes to your question
never realize that the answer will change my life forever
we've been through lots in this 11 years
and after all this time, you're still the one i love
I love you darling, happy anniversary!

He sms me
" Dear, Happy 11 years anniversary, I love you more and more each day...no flowers, no present,no fine dining anymore but you have me sleeping beside you everynight now.yeahhh.. Love u" --- well darling,it counts as a present! its a blessing to have u in my life too..

Meeting Jack

2008-08-14T01:16:00.000-07:00

Today,I took Bryan to his amah for get some massage (before and when i was pregnant with bryan,I've regularly visited ai ichen for massage every twice a week,so when bryan was born, ai ichen treat bryan like her own grandson,that's why bryan call her amah which mean "grandma") and jack (amah grandson) is there too.. jack is nearly 1 year next september, bryan is very-very happy to meet jack, he's keep laugh and smiling while jack is bit unwell, he's easily cry or become jealous when amah hold bryan. if you wonder why Jack looks like causcasian,it was because his father is Australia, while Jack mom (ai daughter) is Chinese.

Bryan and his new "BMW" stroller

2008-08-11T05:27:00.000-07:00

Bryan really loves ride his stroller, he's been moving backward, going circle and right-left with his stroller which makes me EXTRA careful to watch him around, I'm afraid that he's bump into something or even grab anything that potential dangerous for him for example : he loves bump his stroller to table, so i must make sure that the table is in "all clear" status. :)

Oma birthday

2008-08-09T07:18:00.000-07:00

Before I was a Mom
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed
Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.
Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

I never knew I would love being a Mom

Mom,there's no enough space to write down a beauty of your heart in here yet it also still not enough to express how i feel about you, thank you for all your devotion,love and care. I hope i can be like you one day, a great mom with a great heart! Happy Birthday mom, I love you so much!! love, your beloved daughter.

8-8-08

2008-08-08T03:18:00.000-07:00

Bryan was invited by his nephew, Clev's 1st birthday party at his apartment. Bryan's nai-nai (bryan grandma from father side) is the youngest daughter,apparently when nai-nai was born, her sister and brother also have childrens too so nai-nai and her nieces-nephews are about the same age,they got married almost at a same time and have children in about the same age too. So, clev is one of nai-nai nephew grandchildren which also Bryan nephew. Bryan will call clev mommy jie-jie while clev will call bryan Aqiu. hahahahaha..is this too confusing??

But he's totally not in the mood for party today, 15 minutes after we reach there he's start to crying out loud, a hysterical one! and he just won't stop until i decided to bring him home, he's back to normal when he was out from there, and also can smile and laugh at car! *sigh*

I heard from an old people that there's some babies who are so sensitive and since they're still pure sometime they can't see what we can't see especially when we bring baby to a new place, and it's better not take babies outside pass 5 pm during this 7 month of Chinese cause it's a month of hungry ghost festival.

I'm just glad that Bryan is okay! he's not crying or wailing when he was at home, totally fine! I just hope when we're going holiday next month, he will not act like today! *cross finger*

watching Olympic opening ceremony today and it was totally AWESOME! great work and spectacular show! actually bryan and clev was wearing BEIJING 2008 T-shirt today but too bad I didn't have chance to take any picture of them.

At park

2008-08-04T05:24:00.000-07:00

I take Bryan to park near our house this afternoon and ride a swing, he really enjoy it so much :)

8 Months

2008-08-04T04:57:00.000-07:00

Still can't crawling yet
Still can't sit by himself yet, but he can support himself longer now if we put him on sit position.
Still can't standing
Can hold his own bottle
Can go back and side with his baby walker
Still love put everything in his mouth
Eat solid 3 times a day
Drink milk 650-750cc/day
Take a nap 2-3 times
Sleeping time 7pm-6am
Last drinking milk around midnight
His weight is 8,6 kg
Additional 2 teeth during last month so he have 4 teeth now (3 below and 1 above)
Back to his normal mood since last week (easily put on sleep, no wailing or crying)

Opa time

2008-08-04T03:43:00.000-07:00

Opa : "Tuh, liat kamera..kita mao di foto" SMILE... :)

I love you opa... :) *rubbing opa face with love*

My Dad always visit Bryan for his monthly anniversary, like today...he's been calling me since morning to check if his beloved grandson is awake or not so he can playing with him, and of course Bryan enjoying his time with opa so much, when opa is not carried him, he will cry and raising his hand to opa. Since Bryan is the first grandchildren from my family, he's become center of attention of my dad,mom and brothers, they LOVE Bryan VERY-VERY MUCH!

Food lover

2008-08-03T03:04:00.000-07:00

Bryan meal time

2008-08-03T00:46:00.000-07:00

Bryan start his first solid when he was 5 and half months, he first solid is Gerber cereal with mommy milk, and then follow by pear juice 30cc ;) now at 8 months so far Bryan appetite is doing great, he enjoy most of his food, his favourite fruit is papaya, but he also take puree pumpkin combine with potato and milk, banana with cereal and milk, puree pear, I'm just start to introduce him with avocado. he's begin to eat 3 meals per day but breakfast and evening meal only a fruits or cereal, for lunch I give him puree brown rice mixed with vegetables and 1 meat/fish (salmon).

Piggy year babies

2008-08-02T18:37:00.000-07:00

Today Bryan finally meet Kenny, he was born on the same day as Bryan. her mum,yenny is my highschool friend but I'm more close with her sister, wenny.being on the same age as Bryan, kenny has master crawling,standing, and sitting position while bryan still not master anything. but at the other side, Bryan is very talkative, he love to scream, say papa mama very clear and mumbling some words while kenny can't.old man said that if baby can speak first than he will slow in walking and vice versa, for example naomi (bryan cousin who 6 months older) she can speak some words but at nearly 14 months she still can't walking yet ;)

well, everybody has their own time so does the baby,my niece skip crawling and directly standing and walking. as long Bryan growing healthy, i don't have anything to worry at this moment.

Feet lovers

2008-07-31T07:30:00.000-07:00

Bryan loves his feet so much.. he can drag it into his mouth and suck it.now he's playing with his new baby walker and going around the house with it that makes me often wash his feet before he's back playing at crib, otherwise he will suck his dirty feet into his mouth. *yikes*

Meeting aunty Erika and Michelle

2008-07-30T01:52:00.000-07:00

Today we're finally meet Erika and her baby, Michelle @ kelapa gading mall, she was born on 3 December, just 1 day before Bryan, Erika and I meet on discussion forum at weddingku. When I was pregnant with Bryan, I create a forum for babies born on November-December-January 2008 so we all can share all experience during our pregnancy. Michelle is taller 5 cm than Bryan and already crawling and standing. Actually, Kristin and her baby, Annabelle also want to join us but too bad that we're already going home when she reach there.

How to do?

2008-07-28T22:46:00.000-07:00

As a newly mother who doesn't have any experience at all in parenthood, I browse lots of articles and read many people experience about how to teach kid become a good man in the future, and yet when it comes to real situation I still become speechless about how to handle Bryan, now he loves to scream, wailing when we don't do what he want us to do, I don't want him to be grown up as a spoiled kids, and yes I'm afraid that he can't control emotion and doing uncontrolled things like screaming or throwing tantrum in front of public.

I'm still confused about how to discipline bryan, I try to understand what he needs from me, why he cry and screaming but sometimes it just don't enough, especially when you're living together with others the pressure is on! they said that if your kid miss behave then people around you will judge the mother first cause not being able to teach her kids a good manner. others tell me to gently flick bryan if he's doing something wrong so later on he will understand that he can't do it again, I see it works on bryan cousin, naomi who 6 months older than him. if her mother say in high tone" Naomi, pu ke yi ce yang.. mana karet?" she will stop it directly, if she still continue doing it then her mom will put rubber in her arm and hit it gently.

but, I don't totally really agree about "hitting or flick" part, it just make him scare but not understand the concept why I'm doing that, I'm totally agree with leony and adhitya it just a phase of growing up and we as his parents also growing up in emotionally and physically to become more patient and wiser to dealing with his daily behaviour, i don't say it will always easy and smooth, i'm sure there's a time when i feel like loosing temper and emotionally low, it just like riding a roller coaster. it just feel so good to know that i'm not alone in this, if my mom can survive with 4 children then i think Bryan is nothing compare to it. and slowly as time goes by.. I'm sure that I'm gonna find my own style to discipline bryan.

"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear ... "
~1 John 4:18~

Months away..

2008-07-28T07:47:00.000-07:00

In few months away, I'll go for holiday with Bryan..it would be our first time holiday and first time bryan meeting his ta-ku, ku-chong and Eugenia (jaya oldest sister,husband and daughter) I get excited yet worries at the same time, I'm worry he will cry in plane, I'm worry he will have trouble sleeping in a new place, I'm worry he will wailing or throwing tantrum as long as we are there, I'm worry that he's not eating well since i don't have much time to make him a porridge and other worries that I can't explain one by one here since it too much..i can go on with list.

but I get excited too cause it would be one of our precious moment together, just three of us survive as family without suster help around! with suster help,I can sneak out and have a me time alone moment, pamper my self with massage or going out with jaya. but it doesn't mean that i can't handle bryan alone without her help! she just make it a lot easier for me.

I already send 2 can of his usual formula milk when my parents in law went there last week, but i still work on with "what to bring list" since I'll go there for whole two weeks! and also some question that still not resolved such as : should i bring pampers from here or just buy there? should i bring his potty along? should i buy cereal or some other instant food from here? how many bags i need to bring all bryan things?

well, no matter how hard it looks like, I'm still sure that we'll have a great time there!! there's always be a first time for everything..

if you have experience in travel overseas with baby..please share with me! like to hear from you..

A new way to take a nap

2008-07-27T05:50:00.000-07:00

Lately he's very difficult to take a nap, he will crying out loud, refuse to take pacifier and screaming when I try to put him on his crib,he will suddenly smile and happy when I take him out from his crib..actually he's been sleepy but put him to sleep is very hard now days, last saturday.. I took him to my mom house, he won't take a nap and the only way to make him doze off is take a ride with car! it only took less than 5 minutes in car to make this little bryan sleep!! usually, he's not like this.. last week he still can take nap well without cradle or wailing and screaming!! there it go again.. another phase of growing up which i really-really hope can end soon!

In a good mood

2008-07-25T07:36:00.000-07:00

us.. during his good mood day, he can easily smile on camera and laughing out loud! i wish everyday can be like this.. :) he's mood really swing but most of the time, me as his mother know what to do to make him smile again! and it's really make me proud as a mother!

Overweight mommy

2008-07-22T01:23:00.000-07:00

Mommy is overweight!! *frustrated* it's really hard to back to my pre-pregnancy weight since I stop breastfeeding bryan, I wonder why the scale always increase? I only gain 7 kg when pregnant with bryan, but before I'm pregnant I already increase 4 kg since my wedding day! 4 kg in 2 months!! It's all because I eat lots during my 2 weeks honeymoon! *blame the delicious buffet in cruise and flooding in Jakarta that make me extend my stay in spore for 5 days*

actually after labor my weight decrease 8 kg! I'm sooo happy! I even feel my tummy slimmer than before pregnant, so after all i thought i only have 2,5 kg to loose, but now after I stop breastfeeding, my weight up again 10 kg!! I'm too underestimate about weight loose! it's not easy than it looks like!! eventough all my pants still fit in (amazing huh?) i still have 12 kg to loose! diet..diet..diet... !!

Sippy cup

2008-07-19T23:00:00.000-07:00

Bryan is able to hold his own bottle since he was 5 months old and this skill improving, now mostly he can hold his own bottle when drink a milk, and his pincer grasp also improve,he LOVES put everything he hold in his tiny mouth, my handphone, his toes, my laptop (he very curious to lick it when he sit on my lap), his finger, his toys, papers and even tissue!! so, i decide to introduce him to sippy cup

he still can't crawling and his mood still upside down, he even have a new skill in crying..it add a scream! LOUD one!! when he don't want to be put in crib, He'll doing sharp cry, screaming very loud till there's no other way to calm him down unless we hold him, he will suddenly stop all the crying and back to smile! oh yah.. for attention he also have new spoil trick, when he's wail or cry... he will add "mamamama mamamamama.." in very sad sound, calling me for help and if he's doing that, as a mother.. I DON'T have any option other than hold him directly and give him kisses! ohh.. my son, you are very clever knowing how to melt mommy heart!

I guess it's very hard to discipline him now, I've been browsing other moms blogs and find during this period month all their babies have the same symptoms like Bryan. for example, last night he successful to make his daddy woke up at 3.30am by his midnight cry and can't back to sleep again until morning, lucky that daddy have holiday today :P

Celebrating

2008-07-19T08:59:00.000-07:00

Today,.. 11 years ago I met my soul mate

Saturday @ Senayan City

2008-07-19T01:06:00.000-07:00

Me: look at camera son.. Bryan : mom, I'm sleepy...

trying to get a best shot, but he keeps curious bang the highchair

this is the best i can get.. but still he's not focus to camera *sigh*